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fear and love its amazing how one never realizes how close death is...until someone close to them dies, or even tries to kill themself. its just amazing how oblivious i can be, so udderly shut out and narrow minded. i always thought of myself to be open minded, which i am when it comes to happy things, but there are people which think death is no big deal. it is, and it isnt. people say that death is the next big step in life, it is...and it isnt. if your only 16 and you are offed by some chemical reaction between a drug and your own heart, then i would not consider death as having been the next step in life. yet again, the world makes sense...not. are there really steps in life? ok, our steps: 1) birth 2) childhood-infant-middle school 3) teenhood-highschool-college 4) adulthood-college, graduate 5) older adulthood-after college/career-retirement 6) elderlyhood-retirement-nursing home 7) death i guess those are our steps, or thereabouts. but still, step 3 is way too early to die. anyways. so i played ultimate frisbee again today with ryan, marc, joe, reese, andrew, jack, and then kristen and her sister came...then left, same with monique (aka giselle). then andrew gave me a ride home and he and ryan both found out that i was the next door neighbor of teryl, she used to be my best friend, but then she movied to cordova or something, but they used to hang out with her a lot, so it was kind of funny. then amy called to take me to get ice cream, then i went back home again, talked with ryan and sarah for a bit on msn, iced my knee and read. i was supposed to go to a movie with jayme for her birthday, but i couldnt get a hold of my dad so i didnt go. and then when he did get home, i got an invitation from kt to go to kims house for a party-like hang out thing. so i went to that and hung out with my people. it was fun and now im home. ian wants to drag me to club millenium after i turn 16 with a bunch of other people. i was thinking, fake id!! but no..im not that bad. besides, the parents probably wouldnt let me go until i was 16 anyways. 5 months!!! only 5 months!! then i can get my lisence!! yay!!! i can now drive the stick shift (my car) woohooo!!!! im happy, and im not making all of the skid marks when i start up off of a hill!! its so cool, haha. yes yes, i am happy. i am tired, so i think i will go settle down with my harry potter 5 and a nice cup of peppermint tea with honey, sounds good, goodnight. +The Last Five+ |
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