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happy again i was feeling rather upbeat today. like for once my life was going the way i wanted it to. whenever the sun comes out im in a good mood. i suppose the weather really does affect my mood. i began listening to Cold Play again. this may have led to my happiness as well. i love this CD. i talked to my mom about college today. i really want to go to college in England. reeeeally badly too. i asked her if that seemed too unrealistic or out of my league. she said that i can go and do whatever i set my mind to, whatever i want to do. it will be expensive she says, yes. yes, it will be. quite so. but im willing to have a job, hopefully a well-paying job, and im willing to apply for scholarships and such. maybe i can go on a volleyball schlarship, that would be ideal. it would be my own heaven on earth. england, volleyball, college, and hopefully my own flat. im actually looking forward to getting out of highschool. i want to be on my own. be it alone or with someone. i look forward to it. having a job, paying bills, well, maybe not the bills, but its all part of life. i will have my own place that i can decorate as i wish. i can have my own car and do what i want. its all just so exciting. right now i feel so secluded and blahzae. life is calling to me. do not be afraid of death, but rather the life unlived they say. im not afraid, im ready to take it on. mrs. dixon at school likes me. whenever i go in there she always manages to get me to sign up for one of the speakers coming in. :-) haha, shes an awesome lady. very resourceful as well. perhaps thats why she works in the Career RESOURCE Center. :-P but im just so ambitious, people dont get it sometimes. haha, i want to do so much. i just want to live. this is why im happy, i have things to look forward to. besides, i turn 16 in a little over a month now. that means driving, and going places i want without having to be chauffered (sp?). this means a bit of more freedom. i like being happy. lets hope tomorrow, being a monday, goes as well as hoped for. --kate-- PS. i have practice tomorrow! :-) im happy for that. nobody can possibly sit back and call me a slacker here. i dont deserve that, and they dont have the right. i bust my butt everyday. im no slacker. i think its time to change my template again... +The Last Five+ |
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